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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 04:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

What did i know ?

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

How do you deal with neighbors who are always telling you what to do?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

It was going to be , some day.

She loved him until the end.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So, i spoilt her more .

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I have no regrets .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But it wasn’t much.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

It’s been over a month since I stopped taking sertraline but why do I still feel side effects like brain zaps and anxiety mood changes? The root cause of anxiety it’s your thinking and I perfectly master that better than before so it’s hard lately.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Why does Christianity push reconciliation after a partner cheats? Mine had a 7-year affair with someone half my age. He cheated and lied. He is not the same to me.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But, we were locked up after school.

Have you ever had a bad gut feeling about someone and it was right?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He knew the spot.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Was to survive, this bastard.

All the time i was locked up.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Who then, do I blame.?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Comes on , in middle age.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was in good health!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was 9 years of age.

(And it was in our own minds.)

When she asked me how she looked .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She married twice! .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I did it because my mum asked me too!

This is soul school!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I don,t even have a pension.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I think the readers, may guess!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We all went to grammer schools

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So whats the point in blame.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im still living with it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Ive learnt so much.

I write beautiful poetry .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I will be 64.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She wouldn,t have been !

And i lived it daily.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was very sick at this time too.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One cannot live in the past .

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Put me off passion for life!!

We were not on the streets..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My life is so biszare .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My family never makes their pension either.

I couldn’t, believe it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was scared of men, in general

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She found it foreign!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But ive been too sick for many years..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I waited trembling.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I said to her

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Would this be the day?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.